I think things would be better if she was in between my lips again.
I think things would be better if she was in between my lips again.
She asked what I think about women.
Women has small brains, while man have bigger brains.
To the ignorant that might sound like an insult to women.
Truthfully, it’s a huge compliment.
It’s why they have various intelligences that allow them to not only grow but to also give birth to another human being.
If you won’t fully understand this spectacle unless you had the honor of being present when this miracle of an event called birthing takes place.
There are these brain “pathways” that carry messages from one point to another, all within the brain.
The less distance it takes the message to reach its destination via these neural pathway, the faster your thinking is.
Fast thinking, usually equates to a higher form of intelligence.
Women are more intelligent than men.
This makes them the superior species.
Like David used to say, “If you can’t beat them with strength, beat them with intellect.”
Men think like draughts players. Women are chess players.
It’s always a mind game with them.
Always ten steps ahead of you.
There’s a whole world of thinking when it comes to them.
They feel more than men do and this makes them more grounded and more spiritual than men.
A powerful combination which also influences their way of thinking.
Their perception is of life is a wealth of information that makes an information junkie like myself tremble from the craving.
This makes women more attractive to me.
They intuitively know things I would have to do research on.
My thinking is very linear.
Theirs is broad.
I used to have debt that’s been following me for the longest of time, but the advice I got from this one lady allowed me to settle over 80% of the accounts I had in less than 12 months.
With what I thought wasn’t enough income to achieve such a feat.
I thought it was the end of the world when my daughter was diagnosed, until I connected with another lady who raised a child with hydrocephalus, until his passing at a very young age.
The strength I adopted from her story allowed me to be open with finding ways on being an accelerant when it came to my baby’s early intervention and to not be barrier towards her improving well-being.
In my preschooling years, my aunt used to take me along to the library so she can use the time to study for university and finding constructive ways to keep me busy.
Unconsciously introducing me to the world of books, which I used to pass the time with.
Another introduced me to “The Secret,” which heavily influenced my life choices.
And then there’s one I value above all else, has managed to bring my Cancerian-ass out of my shell, and raise my daughter to the healthy baby she currently is.
Women are equipped with speaking skills from a young age.
Which is a gift that allows them to even predict the outcome of most communications.
Engaging conversation is something I lack and there’s a world of teachers out there, which I can learn from.
That’s where my fascination is with women.
And what I lack in communication skill, I make up with flirting.
I think it’s an insecurity thing.
“They will like me more” kind of thing, if I flirt.
They would be more at ease if I have a pleasing personality, maybe.
Like the jester was to kings and queens of all, being seen as a significant peasant in their eyes, fulfills one of my basic human needs.
A need I need fulfilled to feel as if I exist.
A person can do so far to get noticed by someone, anyone.
End up wondering how green the grass really is on the other side.
I just realized something, I’m 35 and I don’t have a pension fund.
This was a result of me jumping from one company to another.
Yes, it’s my fault.
Leaving permanent, 4 year government job I had in favor of fulltime stock trading, was a very risky move.
That stunt came back to bite me in the ass, when that venture failed.
Mainly because I did not initially find someone who was already succeeding in what I wanted to do.
And modelling their success habits that will allow me to be as successful.
Mentorship, would have this most very lucrative for me.
I had to go to corporate world with zero pension fund, bouncing from one pension fund-less job to another.
This was due to the kind of temporary jobs I’ve been getting.
Temps jobs don’t come pension benefits.
Now because I’ve been relying on a company to determine my future financial security, I’m left caught with my dick in my hand.
I’ve been relying on other people to provide a level of security that they themselves aren’t aware of.
There’s no power there.
That part of my life has been titled as one of my greatest failure.
But I’ve now found that it’s one of my greatest successes.
Because of the lessons it has taught me.
More of a warning.
That you are leaving yourself too exposed if you success depends on someone else’s decision.
Your chances of success will tilt in your favour when you take 100% ownership of your level of success in your life.
Saying that anyone or any institution is the reason behind why you’re not getting ahead in life, is a bullshit story you keep telling yourself.
So much so that you believe it.
And because of your belief, this has become your reality.
Just because things are dire for now, does not mean I’m f***ed for life.
Especially when books by Anthony Robbins paint a different picture of my possible future.
I’m due another one pager.
I do my best to write a blog that is at least 1 page long.
Something informative that you might gain from.
Usually I go back to one of my earlier posts to see what I can rehash, for the sake of updating my blog.
I usually like to add a picture or two just to add some weight or depth to my post.
It was something I read in one of his earlier “How to Blog” posts by Darren from ProBlogger.
Shoot, it’s been years since I mentioned him and I’m not too sure if Darren is as relatable as he was in 2012, but I’m sure he is.
But I learnt a whole lot about blogging from him and I learnt even more about writing from Dr. Joe Vitale, who also starred in The Secret.
The Secret was an awesome book, in the sense that it gives you the option to run with it.
By “it” I mean the idea of changing things for the better, through the Law of Attraction.
An introduction module if you will, not the by and all.
This led me to the true understanding of the law.
You can meditate and visualize and writing your goals down every day, but you need to take inspired action.
Just like me wanting to update my blog frequently.
Thinking about it, won’t change anything.
I need to do something about it.
Like writing a one page draft without any idea what the blog is going to be about.
And then subtly referring readers like yourself to links that might be helpful.
Because I’m being nice and these non-affiliated links is my way of buying my way to heaven because I’m a sinner.
Did you know that the devil is a concept that was created by Christianity?
It’s important to expose yourself to contrast.
I’m speaking in terms of minding not to over expose your brain to negative sh**.
Too much of that would have you thinking the whole world going to hell.
With the Internet customizing your search results based on your preference, social media just reaffirms your set of beliefs.
Whether they are valid or not.
So watch more positive stuff.
Read more inspiring stuff.
Like more uplifting posts.
Reshare more motivational shandis.
Manipulate the system in your favor.
Acknowledge the shit show you might be in, but lean in more to the life enriching ideology.
Especially when you realize what’s truly important in your life.
Beautifully explained in the movie I was chatting about with my sister, About Time.
Had a shit day at work yesterday.
Came back home having successfully gathered, in my mind, other BS past events to feel shit about.
But instead of hiding my mini depression behind alcohol or sex, I decided to pray about it.
Having all that stuff compound inside you, in the form of thoughts, will fester and eat you up inside.
Venting in the form of prayer, for me anyway, helps.
So I went to bed, sat up and took my sleeping Sethu in my arms and began to pray.
As if using her as my telephone line to God.
Mentioning how that very baby girl has the flue and needs to get better soon.
How taking her to speech therapy is emotionally taxing and how I need to be strong for her during these effortless sessions – the little one has the time of her life during these sessions.
I also prayed on how I need to speak to this surprisingly ignorant daycare teacher labeling my genius baby as a slow learner, even though the child development specialist evaluated that she’s only delayed in speech for her age.
Actually f*** the specialist, I see that my baby is on point, even though the stupid twat doesn’t.
I prayed over the shit job situation, and their stupid ass meetings that borderline exit interviews.
Prayed about me having to raise 6 times my monthly salary in a space of 12 months as an offering to officially marry the mother of my child.
Me having to move my family to a new rental space. This being our 9th move to date.
The car needing services & repairs.
Me, the first born, feeling compelled to take care of my mom who sold her house.
God knows why.
I say God knows because after the house got sold and she had to go rent for a couple of months, she moved to another church.
The previous church is rumored as a church that uses people’s beliefs to church’s benefit…then again isn’t that the case with most churches?
God works in mysterious ways.
Mom now stays with relatives, who I feel are side eyeing me on why I haven’t stepped up to the plate and took ownership of her situation.
Hell, I’m barely holding things together with my family, let alone including umama into the equation.
Thinking that having the mother of my child going back to live her parents house would save us some money and open up some cashflow options, only to have her own mother kick her out.
Mamazala, your future son in law is working on solutions here but you’re a not getting with the program.
With resumes being updated and submitted for new job apps among all of this. Anxiety levels stretching since I’m going out of my comfort zone and whoring myself out to the marketplace yet again.
Then I heard are only distributor of energy in South Africa was over R400 billion in debt.
So maybe I don’t have it all that bad see?
Been having a lot of pent up anger of late.
Lack of sleep.
Haven’t been reading a good book for almost a week now.
Missing out on my daily meditations.
Haven’t been rewriting my goals.
Not been listening to motivational audios.
Skipping motivational & educational videos.
It’s been months since I’ve been visualizing my success.
I haven’t been exercising as much as I did.
Been poorly taking my vitamins and supplements.
All things happening daily, gradually, to a point where I feel exhausted physically and mentally.
Dropping my emotional intelligence.
I’m in the business of where losing your cool would cost you your job.
That love and hate relationship of being concerned of losing the job you hate.
Where now I incorrectly blame others for my lack of self mastery.
You attract what you are.
Happiness is an inside job.
Won’t happen overnight, but you can change your direction overnight.
The rest is just consistency on your part.
Change begins when you take 100% responsibility of what’s happening around you.
Joe Rogan mentioned something about how doing things that are tough, make you humble.
He was being interviewed about why he doesn’t let his fame go to his head.
He says exposing himself to challenging situation, where he gets his ass kicked, makes him humble.
I had one of those. Maybe you did too.
When you got your ass handed to you.
As soothing as curling up with my head buried against my knees sounds, there is no progress there.
That version of myself won’t get me anywhere. It won’t get me ahead.
Having a cry now and again isn’t a bad thing.
It’s when you keep crying about the past that’s the issue.
What are you going to do now, that’s going to get you moving.
Baby, you got to keep moving to survive.
That’s what World War Z taught me.
What is your objective?
What do you want to achieve?
What is your intention?
What DO you want?
Because when you’re focused and clear on the “what” the “how” will show up.
And all that you need to do from there is to take advantage of the opportunity that will show up for you.
You must put all your energy in the “what.”
You must put aside the anxiety & worry & fear & doubt that comes with figuring the “how.”
You must visualize and imagine and see in your mind’s eye the end result of what you would like to see happen.
Your end objective.
Write it down every morning when you wake up.
Write it down every evening when you go to bed.
Let your brain attract ways, better and easier ways, of attracting it for you.
And that’s just one way to actively use the Law of Attraction.
Stay focused and the Law will honor your focus with opportunities for you to take inspired action on.
I love you.
~ Musawenkosi Tshoaele
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(c) Musawenkosi Tshoaele, 2010