13 Secret Lessons from That Book You Like So Much

The title was supposed to have been 13 Secret Lessons from Jesus but like Job, I’m having a love-hate relationship with my faith, so there.

  1. Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. ~ Matthew 7:7
  2. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. ~ Matthew 5:8
  3. …We are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. ~ Romans 8:37
  4. …Under His wings you will find refuge: His faithfulness will be your shield. ~ Psalm 91:4
  5. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. ~ Proverbs 3:5
  6. Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. ~ Hebrews 11:1
  7. God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble ~ Psalm 46:1
  8. Do not be anxious about anything… ~ Philippians 4:6
  9. Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you. ~ Psalm 55:22IMG-20190412-WA0000
  10. Be kind one to another. ~ Ephesians 4:32
  11. Never stop praying ~ 1 Thessalonians 5:17
  12. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been. ~ Hebrews 12:11
  13. But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible… ~ Matthew 19:26

~ Musa

 

It’s All In Your Head

I want to write.

You know I want to write.

More upbeat posts, and less sex posts or doom and gloom updates.

But, things have been dark.

Midlife crisis maybe.

Like the sanction I got at my new job.

I spent more than 4 years without one in my previous job, but I successfully got one here within less than a year.

I’m a perfectionist and I like all my ducks in a row.

I don’t want anything to spoil my name.

But small things I shouldn’t be doing bled over to my job and the managers here had no choice but to slap my wrist.

I looked in the mirror today, while in the restroom at work.

My eyes look glassy like they are barely holding on to something that needs to come out.

I’m so tired, and it shows through my eyes.

Sometimes it spills over and I feel like I’m erupting.

Tight chest and quick, rapid breathing. Panic attacks.

What scares the shit out of me is that I end up projecting, like I did to a customer.

I’m so angry all the time.main-qimg-59894c003f9760fcafa25401e84e5750

Holy shit, it’s unlike me.

It made me think about control.

How control is an illusion.

And that is what’s making us crazy.

When things go “out of control” when they always were, out of control that is.

There is no control, only chaos.

And we need to make the most of it, with goals and time and feelings.

We need to be at our best behaviors, you see.

You don’t want to be on the naughty list, see?

I saw a wound on my face.

I don’t have one.

But the weight of life is dragging my face down with it.

Dramatic right?

I think I need to get out of my head for some time.

I love you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

Thank You.

~ Musa

Start Attacking What You Fear

There’s something wrong with Stephen King.

I love his books and movie adaptations.

The guy is just loco.

I’m rewatching IT.

Freaking scary stuff.

I want to watch the sequel, because it has that guy from Wanted or was it Split, I think it was X-Men (James McAvoy).

I don’t like scary movies, I don’t like the hold they have over me.

So that’s why I would watch one.

I don’t like being intimidated.

I need to attack my fears. Batman_Begins_Fear_Gas

Because Will Smith said so.

He said he attacked what he feared.

Will Smith used to make dope movies…but now…I don’t know man. It makes me sad.

But he makes great YouTube videos though.

At least there’s that.

~ Musa

Stay Humble…But Never Downplay Your Success

Sometimes when we feel powerless, it’s an indication that you are disconnected from the Infinite Source of Power.kendrick-lamar-damn.jpg

The Infinite Supply.

And you can easily reconnect and restore your power by exercising gratitude.

Any negative emotion that comes up is an indication that you are disconnected.

When you are connected then you feel all the good, positive emotions that is associated with what is also known as Infinite Intelligence.

What some call God and some call the Universe.

There is this Invisible Source of Infinite Energy that exists, that cannot be really explained, but is undisputed.

And when you reconnect to it in the spirit of gratitude, you draw power from it.

There is an energy that exists that does not have a scientific definition.

And gratitude allows you to tap in to that undefined energy.

One needs that “unplug” when it seems like shit hits then fan

~ Musa

The Struggle to Success

Sometimes you have to be knocked down to get ahead in life.

Because of the person you need to become once you get up.

But some just stay knocked down.

Life will knock you TF down, that’s inevitable.

But it’s imperative that you find a way to get up.

That is the price you have to pay for what you want.

Things don’t just come to you, on the regular, without you playing your part.

You got to have your teeth knocked in.

You got to get that gut check.

You want to succeed?

That’s the gauntlet you have to go through.

You get knocked down so that you can dust yourself off and rise.

It’s in your rising that you will find your salvation.

Get the F up!

Become alive.

Your soul yearns for that taste of being alive.

Life is working in your favour, believe it or not.

You might be having your dips in life, but you have more peaks than dips.

Your focus is on how s*** life is.

The important part is to remember that you are going through the dips.

Don’t camp there.

Keep going.

Crawl if you have to.

You have to go through the furnace to become the person you need to be.

Lift your head up so that your line of vision will allow you to see opportunities to get you ahead in life.

Not the obstacles you keep looking for on the ground.

Only then will you be within eye view of the things that you want.

Life is conspiring for you and not against you.

Life is outside your comfort zone, so in order for you to succeed, shit needs to be uncomfortable.

Success is the progressive realization of a worthy ideal.

If you having it easy in life, then you’re not progressing towards success, but away from it.

It’s a process.

Like, how bad do you want it?

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~ Musa

The BS Story You Keep Telling Yourself…

I just realized something, I’m 35 and I don’t have a pension fund.

This was a result of me jumping from one company to another.

Yes, it’s my fault.

Leaving permanent, 4 year government job I had in favor of fulltime stock trading, was a very risky move.

That stunt came back to bite me in the ass, when that venture failed.

Mainly because I did not initially find someone who was already succeeding in what I wanted to do.

And modelling their success habits that will allow me to be as successful.

Mentorship, would have this most very lucrative for me.

I had to go to corporate world with zero pension fund, bouncing from one pension fund-less job to another.

This was due to the kind of temporary jobs I’ve been getting.

Temps jobs don’t come pension benefits.

Now because I’ve been relying on a company to determine my future financial security, I’m left caught with my dick in my hand.

I’ve been relying on other people to provide a level of security that they themselves aren’t aware of.

There’s no power there.

That part of my life has been titled as one of my greatest failure.

But I’ve now found that it’s one of my greatest successes.

Because of the lessons it has taught me.

More of a warning.

That you are leaving yourself too exposed if you success depends on someone else’s decision.

Your chances of success will tilt in your favour when you take 100% ownership of your level of success in your life.81x2aSRQqGL

Saying that anyone or any institution is the reason behind why you’re not getting ahead in life, is a bullshit story you keep telling yourself.

So much so that you believe it.

And because of your belief, this has become your reality.

Just because things are dire for now, does not mean I’m f***ed for life.

Especially when books by Anthony Robbins paint a different picture of my possible future.

~ Musa

The Relapse

When I get obsessed with something or someone, I get really obsessed.

My grip becomes relentless.

I’m a hoarder.

When something feels good or fulfils something that I need, I hold on to it and I don’t let go.

This sometimes comes back to bite me in the ass.

Like a 5 year long job I held on to even though I could get a better paying job with improved working conditions elsewhere.

Or when someone distances themselves from me, I choose to completely ignore the tells and find a way to still stay “close” to them.

Some people are just to kind to blow me off.

I’m an emotional person.

I’m a very sensual person.

So knowing these facts about myself I tend to avoid human beings, because once I open up to someone, it very hard for me to let go of them.

So I walk around with a scowl on my face.

I’m very unapproachable.

I have my defensives up, because I’m so gullible.

I’m empathetic.

I then want to find things that would make you happy, so that I can also ride that high that comes from your happiness.

This makes me want to make you happy even more.

It becomes like a drug.

I have a very negative outlook in life generally, so finding “fountains” of happiness is like treasure hunting for me.

And when I do, I hoard it.

I’m over-sensitive.

When someone I love breaks away from me or their level of reciprocal love diminishes, I feel like the whole world is ending.

Just like how mom separated from my dad during my teens.

It turns out dad divorced my mom and not the other way around.

I used to blame her for the longest of time for that.

I believe that’s why I stayed for so long with a company that did not value me.

Because “breaking up” with it would trigger an emotion linked to a devastating memory.

I’m a masochist.

My pain-threshold is high, so even when I’m being rejected, I find ways to ignore and muscle on the delusion of being wanted (this is because, to me pain is pleasure).

When in truth my services are no longer required.

I taught my brain to associate pain with pleasure.

It’s like having sex, but with my brain.

A mindfuck.

Which sometimes leads me to making rash decisions that end up with me meeting up wonderful people.

The MacGyvers of this world.

The Steven Siegals.

The Chuck Norrises.

The Terminators.

The Never Dies.

Bo James Bond…who I end up falling in love with, because I have a weak restraint when it comes to managing my emotions.

I’m impulsive.

I’m Musawenkosi Tshoaele.

~ Musa

How Will Failure Overtake You?

It has come to my experience that when you are working towards your goals, don’t stop your grind just because you see an inkling of your efforts bearing fruit.

You stand the chance of losing your momentum.

And having momentum is one of the key factors that add to your success.

Keeping in mind that for you to gain momentum, you would have to be doing something consistently, for a long period of time.

Consistent action towards a particular goal will, eventually, produce results.

That means you need to start first by having a goal to work towards.

I just reversed engineered the process for you.

Just don’t start celebrating too early.

Counting chickens before the hatch?

Nothing is more self defeating than to have success elude you because you saw promising results. That makes you take your foot off the paddle.

If it’s not in black and white, then it’s only smoke.

Keep grinding.

Keep sowing.

Only when you have success in your hands, is it true success.

Not before then, not really.

I think we get tired of the process.

The struggle of success as Napoleon Hill puts it.

Stay in the process.

Let the process mold you into the person you need to become…so you can attract the things you want.

You need to be an attractive person.

And the process is what’s going to make you this attractive person.

The burn, the struggle, the process will make you easier to mold.

I think that’s where phrases like staying out of the kitchen, if you can’t take the heat comes from.

Failure will overtake you right at the finish line if you celebrate too early.

~ Musa

Be The Best, Especially When They Are Not Looking

I saw this cool thing while browsing the UFC videos on facebook.

There was a backstage interview they did.

Where a current fighter was giving props to a retired mma fighter.

Sometimes what you do inspires others.

Even when you’re not noticing that you are.

These days people only do good if someone is recording a video of them doing so.

It’s quite sad.

As if to say if noone sees the good I’m doing, then what’s the point.

Got to get those likes, you see?

So my plea is to do good.

Especially when no one’s looking.

Try to be the best version of yourself.

Whether there’s a phone recording you or not.

Try to be the best version of yourself, even if your current environment is trying to choke that out of you.

~ Musa‎