The Fixer

B33rFzqCYAIREuFSometimes when the road ahead looks very dark, anxiety levels go up.

That’s when I come to you God to help shed some light.

But if the road I’m taking vele has no street lights then I’m relieved knowing that you are by my side.

I’m taking this knee with this post because I’m also in dire need so my ancestors need to be also involved in this prayer.

Because without them I would be here, and without You they wouldn’t have been.

I light my candles and incense with this update in gratitude of what I already have.

Thank you for our business.

Thank you for our jobs.

Thank you for the shelter you are providing us.

Thank you for the water and lights that we sometimes take for granted.

Thank you for the food we eat.

Our perfect health and the rich relationships we have.

Thank you for the clothes on our backs.

And the large amounts of income that come to us through various sources, with increasing frequency.

All praise goes to you God.

I am bound to make flops along the way.

I just want to thank you for softening the falls.

Thank you for giving me the courage to fail forward.

Because there is no learning without falling. And I need to learn so I can grow to be my better self.

Continue guiding us through to our better self.

Yours in gratitude,

Amen

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Blaming It On The Full Moon

It was on a night like this. Full moon and all. Think I was waist high. Full-Moon-e1406929374981

Another fight between my parents. Sister too young to notice.

It bled out to the street. I guess the house was too small.

She’s was so Orlando, managing to throw in some licks of her own.

In the background I was hearing a voice, it sounded foreign, of someone reprimanding my dad and my mom.

That’s when I realized it was my voice. So loud, it felt wrong. To be raising my voice like that to my parents?

Mom had sister wrapped around her back with a small blanket.

But what got me was how clear the night was, outside

So clear from the light from the moon. So clear it was as if God had Her stage light on. Just for us.

I too was smacked around as well for obeying my mother when she asked me to follow her with her wanting to leave.

Heck, she was leaving. Taking evening taxi’s my aunt’s place maybe…

Never got to ask.

Mixed emotions.

Happy mom is away. But sad that she’s gone.

I wouldn’t come back if I was her.

But I want her back.

Dad managed to rip my sister from mom’s back.

Was sis’ crying?

Maybe, but this memory is not about her, it’s about me.

Why the fuck am I witnessing this.

It can’t be real.

Was smacked back reality because I endangered myself by being on road and not safe on the pavement.

But it’s not my fault I’m outside so late this evening, dude

But I’ll take it.

I’ve been taking it. For a while now so… whatever.

But why are you doing this in front of my sister?

We’re back home now.

Mom’s not here though so we’re back in the house now.

Awkward silence now.

Sister on his knee trying to quiet her.

Don’t quite down baby.

This is an outrage.

Why you calming down now?

You going to betray me as well?

Wants from with the women in my life?

Women are trash.

What now.

It’s still light out.

Sister be sleeping now.

So it’s time for bed as well.

My heart fuming. Keeping me warm from the cool breeze that was outside.

Feeling hollow.

Playing the blame game. Blame my mother. Blame my father. Blame my sister. And blaming it on the full moon.

~ Musa

“You Are The Average Of The Top Five People You Spend Most Of Your Time With.” – Jim Rohn 

I don’t think you should deny yourself the release that comes from venting.

But don’t make it a habit.

Otherwise you will lose a lot of your blog readers that way.

Venting identifies the problem.

So now that you have IDed the problem, what’s the solution?

I read some where that some women vent to be heard, not that they are looking for a solution from you.

I think that’s weird, but then again men have a nothing box.

I think that’s weirder.

I’m going off topic again.

What I’m saying is that the things you put in your head will show in the kind of attitude you have.

If your head is in the gutter, then your attitude will stink.

Your attitude is something that might be hard to monitor with all the junk we are surrounded with.

From external influences like the news, TV and shitty friends and family who do more to pull you down than to lift you up.

The environment you’re in plays an important role in your thinking.

And I think, for the most part, you do have control over your environment.

Thank you.

I love you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

~ Musa

“Let the dead bury their own dead…”

Just want to extend on my Tumblr that the saying that goes “it gets easier with time,”… I don’t know about that hey.

The sting is still there, but maybe not as loud as before.

It’s like sand running through your hands.

She was alive…

…Then she wasn’t.

Followed by my friend’s father.

Then my work colleague.

Death was on a roll that’s for sure.

I think I don’t want to admit that it does get better with time.

Maybe because feeling the pain is evidence that it was real.

Her being with us, being with me.

But eventually there’s going to come a time when I will question whether this pain makes sense any more.

Or if it’s denying me the joy I could be experiencing right now.

But not right now.

~ Musa

PS: But one day I will. Life is too short to be living in the past.

Dealing With Stress


What is Stress?

The word stress comes from the Latin word “stringere” – which means “to strain” or “to tighten.”

This is exactly what stress is about: in a stressful event our body tenses to allow for a quick response.

Stress is normal – it helps us to survive and react to our environment.

However, stress can become unhealthy and dangerous. In nature, our bodies are designed to react to a threat with a quick bodily response.

Normally, the threat would be dealt with and our body would return to normal.

In our hectic daily life, stress has become the normality so our bodies do not return to relaxation but are constantly tense to react to the multiple stress factors around us.

When we do not find time to unwind and our bodies never get to relax, stress becomes dangerous and unhealthy.

What can you do about stress?

1. Make A Decision: when faced with a stressful situation it is your decision whether you see it as stressful or not.

For example, if you are stuck in traffic on the way to work, you can either frantically switch lanes and hoot at other drivers, or you can sit back, listen to your radio and acknowledge that there is nothing you can do about it.

2. Don’t Be So Hard On Yourself: most people focus on the bad things rather than the good things.

How often do you talk to yourself in negative way? “stupid me.” “I can’t do this.”

Check the way you think about yourself and try to change the message you use.

Encourage and support yourself: “next time I’ll try harder,” “I will try the best I can” or “I’ll be all right.”

3. Check Your Diet: caffefine, sugar, fatty foods and alcohol are bad for you.

They deplete essential vitamins and raise arousal levels even further.

Switch to avocados instead – they contain natural anti-depressants and are excellent stress busters.

4. Exercise: exercise breaks down stress. When exercising you allow your body to physically react to stressors. After exercise you will find relaxing much easier.

5. Sleep: ensure that you get enough sleep – 6-8 hours should be enough.

6. Sex And Intimacy: yes it’s good for you! Sex and intimacy allow you to physically and emotionally relax.

7. Recreational Activities: have fun in your spare time. This will help you to shift your focus away from stress allowing for better work/ life balance.

8. Meaning: think about why you are doing all this. What is the meaning behind your life/ work/ family? Reflect on your priorities.

Habits of Effective Stress-Managers

 they know how to relax

 they eat right and exercise often

 they get enough sleep

 they don’t worry about the unimportant stuff

 they don’t get angry often

 they are organized

 they manage their time effectively

 they have and make use of a strong social support system

 they live according to their values

 they have a good sense of humour

…managing stress is not a magical process but rather one that means mastering new behaviours and finding new ways of looking at yourself and the world.”

Acknowledgment must be given to the Employee Wellness Programme Psychology department within the South African Revenue Service.

PS. I wish you a happy new year!

We’re All Connect: You Wouldn’t Willing Cause Another To Feel Pain If It Was Going To Cause You To Feel Pain Also

It literally feels like I woke up trying to push the furious flow of a powerful flow of water upstream with futile results.

Something my girlfriend said last night triggered an unchecked negative emotion which I choose to hold on to before going to bed, an error in thinking which does not harmonies with the rich, abundant happiness that my spiritual self is.

The unlimited spirit that holds my body together also forms the air between myself and another person or object.

That external person/ object is also composed of the spirit that I am although in a possible different vibration than I am in, a vibration that depicts the colour & form, giving us the illusion that due to our differences we are separate from one another.

Which is not true.

This “I am separate from you” mentality has led to misery, pain, discomfort, struggle, hatred, anger, dissatisfaction and other related emotions that are created by man and are not God created, and are thus the foundations of the Hell experience.

Even God is seen as a separate being from us with some people at times looking up to Him during prayer and not looking within – even after being reminded this with verses like “the kingdom of God is within.”

For me another interpretation of Let Go and Let God could be letting go of the thoughts and feelings that make me feel bad and embrace the positive goodness that God is, the positive goodness that I am.

And one way to do that is to break focus with it.

Feeding the discomfort with your focus and attention is just going to expand & increase it.

You will seem to attract past and future experiences that would justify and validate your current mood and it would feel like you are sinking faster and faster in your man-made quicksand which causes tension and stress through your body and that is where disease comes from.

Willing yourself to feed into your mind positive “feel good” images – the mind thinks in pictures, not words – by taking your focus away from thinking, talking, and feeling about your unfortunate state of being and into:

reading inspiring books or articles,

listening to or singing along to your favourite music,

dancing,

taking long peaceful walks taking in everything you see with awe and amazement,

closing your eyes and forcing each and every cell of your body to vibrate in a state of happiness for as long as you can,

taking a piece of paper and writing about what you would rather experience and how you would feel right now if the thing you wanted to happen happened,

eating and feeling joy as you allow your taste buds to celebrate at how good eating that bowl of cereal feels like you almost want to cry tears of joy, all exercises that might even take less than 3 minutes to do.

“Give thanks in all circumstances.”

Being humbled and giving thanks in all situations, good or bad, helps us see the lesson that has been brought to us by our subconscious mind.

A lesson that is needed to be learnt for us to grow in spiritual evolution bringing us closer in alignment to the Order wich is our unlimited Source Supply of God.

Something I need to sit in silence on and allow myself to voluntarily take in, accept and become.

An individual can stay mad or hold grudges for years on end and reap the repurccisons or she can do that for 3 minutes, and focus on attracting and manifesting and created the abundant success and happiness she is and thus deserves, by birthright.

– Musawenkosi Tshoaele, Copyright (c) 2009 – All rights reserved.