“Dead Or Alive, You Are Coming With Me.”


Been having a lot of pent up anger of late.

It compounds.

Lack of sleep.

Haven’t been reading a good book for almost a week now.

Missing out on my daily meditations.

Haven’t been rewriting my goals.

Not been listening to motivational audios.

Skipping motivational & educational videos.

It’s been months since I’ve been visualizing my success.

I haven’t been exercising as much as I did.

Been poorly taking my vitamins and supplements.

All things happening daily, gradually, to a point where I feel exhausted physically and mentally.

Dropping my emotional intelligence.

I’m in the business of where losing your cool would cost you your job.

That love and hate relationship of being concerned of losing the job you hate.

Where now I incorrectly blame others for my lack of self mastery.

You attract what you are.

Happiness is an inside job.

Won’t happen overnight, but you can change your direction overnight.

The rest is just consistency on your part.

Change begins when you take 100% responsibility of what’s happening around you.

To you.

Through you.

~ Musa

Mark 3:13-15

If you had 12 disciples in the form of 12 disciplines or 12 principles you would use in your life to “have the authority to cast out” the demons of our lives, demons in the form of life’s obstacles and challenges, what would they be?

Not in any order but I propose, not in any specific order. Their names would be:

#1. Gratitude.

#2. Faith.

#3. Persistence.

#4. Patience.

#5. (my favourite) Action-Inspired.

#6. Goal-Setting.

#7. Sensory Visualization (closing your eyes and visualizing success with all your physical senses).

#8. Compound-Action (the most silent of the disciples).

#9. Given (also known as Karma).

#10. Peema (aka PMA, aka Positive Mental Attitude).

#11. Focus.

#12. Silence (the most outspoken).

These would be my disciples who I will walk with daily. I will eat with them, rest with them, bath with them, laugh with them and seek guidance and consultation with them.

There Are Multiple Roads To Get To Your Destination

You know it hit me that if you were to change your focus when you encounter what you may at first consider as “lack”[1], and you allow yourself to be on the lookout of other resources that will achieve the same outcome, they appear.

“As long as one keeps searching, the answers come…” – Joan Baez

You get disappointed obviously when, for example, you find that you out of bread to make breakfast with in the morning and mom didn’t leave any money to go buy it with.

I realize that most get into the habit of cultivating this feeling of disappointment, well at least I did, by reaffirming them through holding on to this emotions that fear sponsors longer than necessary.

Then disappointment, through continual repetition in thought and word, leads to frustration. Then another image or idea crops up in your mind of how mom is so selfish and uncaring, especially since she knows that I’m broke, you say.

If you keep at it an then this frustration leads to anger.

That’s why I want to leave this place!

She always finds a way to harm me!

The knot in your chest builds up and your breathing becomes heavier.

I hate how she can’t manage her finances!

She’s always going on about how she doesn’t have money but goes on to spend it on unnecessary things!

Then she goes out and begs!

Now I have to carry the whole weight of the family with me, this always happens!


The familiar addictive surge of adrenaline runs through your veins and gives you the illusion of strength or power. You then find that there is no one nearby to use as a human punching bag so you turn to yourself and you hit depression.

…all because you failed to notice the leftover meal from last night in the fridge that you could can warm up instead and quench your hunger with.

It’s your outlook in life, some of us I might add, to lean towards lack and negativity at the slightest excuse, that lead to the train of thought mentioned above.

A train fueled by the coals of fear.

It’s as if you’re on standby, focusing on things to complain about and negative emotions to hold on to so to fulfill your addiction and chosen habit.

As if you have successfully set your mind into reacting in the negative when you have encountered temporary defeat.

Keeping in mind that this way of thinking did not happen over night, the way you are thinking now – in the negative more than you do in the positive, is a conditioning that did not happen overnight.

It was through continual repetition of thoughts of fear that your mind is set that way, and the only way to remedy to through persistent repetition of its exact opposite.

That being faith.

Faith, also known as absolute confidence.

Which would need just as much commitment and persistent repetition in experiencing its “hold over you” just as much as you allowed thought of fear to establish squatter camps in the rich garden of your mind.

“We can’t change the cards we are dealt with, just how we play the hand.” – Randy Pausch

So when that card is dealt, ask yourself what are you doing to help make the situation better.


[1] If you believe in the statement, “life is what you make it” see the abundance instead of the lack in all your life encounters. Now that’s true freedom…

– Tshoaele