Blaming It On The Full Moon

It was on a night like this. Full moon and all. Think I was waist high. Full-Moon-e1406929374981

Another fight between my parents. Sister too young to notice.

It bled out to the street. I guess the house was too small.

She’s was so Orlando, managing to throw in some licks of her own.

In the background I was hearing a voice, it sounded foreign, of someone reprimanding my dad and my mom.

That’s when I realized it was my voice. So loud, it felt wrong. To be raising my voice like that to my parents?

Mom had sister wrapped around her back with a small blanket.

But what got me was how clear the night was, outside

So clear from the light from the moon. So clear it was as if God had Her stage light on. Just for us.

I too was smacked around as well for obeying my mother when she asked me to follow her with her wanting to leave.

Heck, she was leaving. Taking evening taxi’s my aunt’s place maybe…

Never got to ask.

Mixed emotions.

Happy mom is away. But sad that she’s gone.

I wouldn’t come back if I was her.

But I want her back.

Dad managed to rip my sister from mom’s back.

Was sis’ crying?

Maybe, but this memory is not about her, it’s about me.

Why the fuck am I witnessing this.

It can’t be real.

Was smacked back reality because I endangered myself by being on road and not safe on the pavement.

But it’s not my fault I’m outside so late this evening, dude

But I’ll take it.

I’ve been taking it. For a while now so… whatever.

But why are you doing this in front of my sister?

We’re back home now.

Mom’s not here though so we’re back in the house now.

Awkward silence now.

Sister on his knee trying to quiet her.

Don’t quite down baby.

This is an outrage.

Why you calming down now?

You going to betray me as well?

Wants from with the women in my life?

Women are trash.

What now.

It’s still light out.

Sister be sleeping now.

So it’s time for bed as well.

My heart fuming. Keeping me warm from the cool breeze that was outside.

Feeling hollow.

Playing the blame game. Blame my mother. Blame my father. Blame my sister. And blaming it on the full moon.

~ Musa

When Death, Time & Love Write Back 

I don’t like movies that make me cry.

Watching Collateral Beauty starring Will Smith had me squinting my eyes.

collateral_beautyHolding my tears back with my eyelids.

It’s been a while since I’ve watched a movie like that.

Evoking so much emotions then throwing me out of wack after it was done with me.

It was Mr. Smith’s best performance to date.

Enjoyed listening to the story behind the scenes on how he also experienced loss during the making of the movie.

How he just went all out in giving it all through the film.

Can’t wait until it’s out on Blu-ray.

It’s worth the watch.

Please forgive me.

I’m sorry.

Thank you.

I love you.

~ Musa

Being Better Than Your Old Self 

htwfaip​”The way to get things done,” says  [Charles] Schwab, “is to stimulate competition. I do not mean in a sordid, money-getting way, but in the desire to excel.” 

Ran our of characters for me to post this on Twitter so I’m posting it here.

Thought this was a cool quote.

Competing to be better than who you are.

From a book I’m reading again by Dale Carnegie, How to Win Friends and Influence People. 

Thank you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

I love you.

~ Musa

Bet You Think This Blog Is About You

I sometimes forget the reasons why I write my blogs.

I get so cagey at time and I don’t want to associate with anyone or anything.

I lock myself in my shell when reality becomes to real for me.

But writing helps.

So like even if I’m going through stuff, writing something hopefully might be helpful to someone out there reading this.

The whole point of this is to pay it forward.

This life is not about you.

I think we are here to serve.pay-it-forward

In whatever form that comes natural to you.

Mine is writing.

Yours could be something else.

I’m not sure if you could say it’s your life’s purpose.

Turning that into something that pays you, that’s the rub.

Do things that come natural to you, things that make you happy.

The more you are in alignment with what makes you tick, the happier you will be, the happier the world will be.

“To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human.”

Thank you.

I love you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

~ Musa

“You Are The Average Of The Top Five People You Spend Most Of Your Time With.” – Jim Rohn 

I don’t think you should deny yourself the release that comes from venting.

But don’t make it a habit.

Otherwise you will lose a lot of your blog readers that way.

Venting identifies the problem.

So now that you have IDed the problem, what’s the solution?

I read some where that some women vent to be heard, not that they are looking for a solution from you.

I think that’s weird, but then again men have a nothing box.

I think that’s weirder.

I’m going off topic again.

What I’m saying is that the things you put in your head will show in the kind of attitude you have.

If your head is in the gutter, then your attitude will stink.

Your attitude is something that might be hard to monitor with all the junk we are surrounded with.

From external influences like the news, TV and shitty friends and family who do more to pull you down than to lift you up.

The environment you’re in plays an important role in your thinking.

And I think, for the most part, you do have control over your environment.

Thank you.

I love you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

~ Musa

“You Are Not Alone…”

51Yyzvo-TOL._SX304_BO1,204,203,200_After reading Robert Kiyosaki’s Rich Dad Poor Dad: What The Rich Teach Their Kids About Money That the Poor and Middle Class Do Not! I decided to quit my government job so I can start making money in the stock market.

It was the dumbest idea I had because I should have already been making money in the market already, before even thinking of letting go of my “secure” job.

At the least making the income from it that exceeded my expenses.

Now that is a good reason to consider dropping the 9 to 5.

So as you might have guessed, the project was a flob.

Leading to me losing my job, leading me asking my mother for lunch money when she went to work in the morning, since I was living with her at the time.

Losing my car, which was still financed by the bank.

Losing my self esteem and confidence.

And I kept saying that I’m ok…but I wasn’t.

I was depressed but I told myself I wasn’t.

With me not eating and if I did eat I wasn’t eating right.

51aAy2A9NiL._SY344_BO1,204,203,200_Spending most my time in my room, playstation all day.

I’m not saying Robert Kiyosaki was the cause of my depression, see Rich Dad’s Before You Quit Your Job: 10 Real-Life Lessons Every Entrepreneur Should Know About Building a Multimillion-Dollar Business.

I was in the dumps but I didn’t want to admit that I was.

Something that happens to other people and not me, kinda thing.

Sometimes you are too proud to tell the truth about yourself.

Sometimes an intervention can pull you up and out, so you can try again…better.

Sold my playstation.

Brushed up my CV.

Went out again applying for jobs and getting interviews so to go back in the rat race again, and doing it right this time around.

To try again.

To fail my way to success.

But what I’m trying to put across is that doing something, the mere act of taking action, helped.

Taking action helps.

Just doing…something…anything that will keep your body moving helps.

But I think your faith is the ultimate defining factor.

I like how Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson puts in this 2:36 min video on Facebook.

Even Dr. Norman Vincent Peale said it is his book The Power of Positive Thinking, “Feeling listless, write a list.”81ND4ZcIsxL

So if you are feeling dead inside then get into motion.

Motion creates emotion. – Anthony Robbins

Thank you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

I love you.

Musa

How To Write Your 100+ Dreams  List – Part 2

What 5 things you would like to learn in your lifetime?

  • Learning how to swim
  • Learning how to tread water
  • Learning the guitar
  • Learning judo
  • Learning to make an extra $100 per month on the internet
  • Learning how to eat with chopsticks

2. What 5 family experiences you would like to provide for your family?

  • Vacation to table mountain
  • Vacation to Victoria Falls
  • Vacation to God’s Window
  • Vacation to Mauritius
  • Picnic in Pretoria park

3. What 5 things you want to do just once?

  • Hot air balloon ride with Thube
  • Date night with Thube on a hotel balcony overlook Paris Eiffel Tower
  • Sky diving
  • Bungee jumping
  • Walking the length of on the great wall of China

4. What 5 sporting events you would like to go to live?

  • Orlando Pirates soccer match
  • American football game
  • Formula one grand prix with my father in Monte Carlo
  • US open tennis match
  • Jeppe boys rowing race
  • Ultimate Fighting Championship Event 

5. What 5 things you would like to share or teach others?

  • Sharing my life experiences published in book form
  • Sharing 10% of my income to my favourite charity
  • Teaching 5 people how to make R1200 network marketing passive income every month for the rest of their lives
  • Sharing 10% of my income towards credit card surplus
  • Teaching Tumi how to drive

6. What 5 challenges you would like to conquer in your lifetime?

  • Mastering building a R200,000 network marketing business asset that gives me an extra R1,200 per month passive income every month for the rest of my life
  • Having a R10,000 per month passive network marketing income by December 2017
  • Having attracted 20+ business minded and ambitious people to the March 2017 Business Seminar
  • New formal look at work with new formal shoes
  • Driving in an grey Aston Martin DBS

7. What 5 personal characteristics you would like to develop?

  • Being more charismatic
  • More self confidence
  • Having a positive mental attitude
  • Being more enthusiastic
  • Being more money conscious
  • Speaking well of others even when I’m not around them

8. What 5 financial milestones you would like to achieve?

  • Building a R5000 per month passive income generating network marketing business
  • Building a network marketing asset that generates R10000 passive income every month
  • Building a network marketing business that generates R15000 per month passive income
  • Building a network marketing business that generates R20000 per month passive income
  • Building a network marketing business that generates R40000 per month passive income after tax for the rest of my life – talk about having a modest pension in my later years right?

9. What 5 things you would like to do in your community?

  • Sponsor rowing kit for my high school
  • Invest in a Wi-Fi free zone
  • Start a foundation that increases the amount of self-development books in libraries
  • Escalation hotline to speed up services delivery queries
  • Landscaping business that offers free services for selected clients
  • Building a library dedicated to self improvement books under my name 

10. What 5 concerts you would like to attend live?

  • Black coffee
  • DJ Franky
  • Dj Sika
  • Jay Z
  • Opera concert

11. What 5 cities would like to explore?

  • Orlando, USA
  • Port Elizabeth, South Africa
  • London, England
  • Beijing, China
  • Bangkok, Thailand (I think)

12. What 5 things you like to do in your own country?

  • Quad bike riding
  • Drinks at Chaf pozi
  • Shot left to East London
  • Road trip to cape town
  • Gold reef with family

13. What 5 cultural events you would like to attend?

  • Colour run
  • Annual carnival in Brazil
  • Annual jazz carnival at New Orleans
  • Annual cape town carnival
  • Chinese new year celebration

14. What 5 goals achieved in the past and would like to achieve again?

  • Receiving R10000 monthly after tax income
  • Being recognized on a network 21 stage
  • Getting my own passport
  • Travelling internationally on a plane
  • R15000 lobola contribution

15. What 5 things you would like to design?

  • Wooden bench
  • Family home
  • Rocking chair
  • Shopping mall
  • Hotels

16. What 5 businesses you would like to build?

  • Cashflow rich network marketing business
  • Email marketing business
  • Landscaping business
  • Public speaking business
  • Real estate business
  • Futures and Forex trading businesses

17. What 5 things you would like to create?

  • Flourishing new town
  • Network marketing asset portfolio
  • Real estate asset portfolio
  • Stock trading asset portfolio
  • Family park with free WiFi

18. What 5 things you would like to own?

  • Aston Martin DBS
  • Cashflow rich Beach apartments
  • Cashflow rich Townhouses
  • Cashflow rich Block of flats
  • A single level Houghton mansion
  • Cashflow rich network marketing business that generates R120000 p.a.

19. What 5 health milestones you would like to reach?

  • High energy levels
  • Improved stamina
  • Increased healthy weight gains
  • Exercise daily
  • Removing 6cm around my stomach the Healthpointe way

20. What 5 hobbies you would like to pursue?

  • Book writing
  • Regular exercises
  • Gaming for money
  • Traveling for pleasure
  • Watching my baby girl grow in a grown up and successful baby girl as a wealthy full time dad

Just thought I should extend on what one of my earlier update.

I’m sorry.

Thank you.

Please forgive me.

I love you.

~ Musa