When Death, Time & Love Write Back 

I don’t like movies that make me cry.

Watching Collateral Beauty starring Will Smith had me squinting my eyes.

collateral_beautyHolding my tears back with my eyelids.

It’s been a while since I’ve watched a movie like that.

Evoking so much emotions then throwing me out of wack after it was done with me.

It was Mr. Smith’s best performance to date.

Enjoyed listening to the story behind the scenes on how he also experienced loss during the making of the movie.

How he just went all out in giving it all through the film.

Can’t wait until it’s out on Blu-ray.

It’s worth the watch.

Please forgive me.

I’m sorry.

Thank you.

I love you.

~ Musa

Being Better Than Your Old Self 

htwfaip​”The way to get things done,” says  [Charles] Schwab, “is to stimulate competition. I do not mean in a sordid, money-getting way, but in the desire to excel.” 

Ran our of characters for me to post this on Twitter so I’m posting it here.

Thought this was a cool quote.

Competing to be better than who you are.

From a book I’m reading again by Dale Carnegie, How to Win Friends and Influence People. 

Thank you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

I love you.

~ Musa

“You Are The Average Of The Top Five People You Spend Most Of Your Time With.” – Jim Rohn 

I don’t think you should deny yourself the release that comes from venting.

But don’t make it a habit.

Otherwise you will lose a lot of your blog readers that way.

Venting identifies the problem.

So now that you have IDed the problem, what’s the solution?

I read some where that some women vent to be heard, not that they are looking for a solution from you.

I think that’s weird, but then again men have a nothing box.

I think that’s weirder.

I’m going off topic again.

What I’m saying is that the things you put in your head will show in the kind of attitude you have.

If your head is in the gutter, then your attitude will stink.

Your attitude is something that might be hard to monitor with all the junk we are surrounded with.

From external influences like the news, TV and shitty friends and family who do more to pull you down than to lift you up.

The environment you’re in plays an important role in your thinking.

And I think, for the most part, you do have control over your environment.

Thank you.

I love you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

~ Musa

“You Are Not Alone…”

51Yyzvo-TOL._SX304_BO1,204,203,200_After reading Robert Kiyosaki’s Rich Dad Poor Dad: What The Rich Teach Their Kids About Money That the Poor and Middle Class Do Not! I decided to quit my government job so I can start making money in the stock market.

It was the dumbest idea I had because I should have already been making money in the market already, before even thinking of letting go of my “secure” job.

At the least making the income from it that exceeded my expenses.

Now that is a good reason to consider dropping the 9 to 5.

So as you might have guessed, the project was a flob.

Leading to me losing my job, leading me asking my mother for lunch money when she went to work in the morning, since I was living with her at the time.

Losing my car, which was still financed by the bank.

Losing my self esteem and confidence.

And I kept saying that I’m ok…but I wasn’t.

I was depressed but I told myself I wasn’t.

With me not eating and if I did eat I wasn’t eating right.

51aAy2A9NiL._SY344_BO1,204,203,200_Spending most my time in my room, playstation all day.

I’m not saying Robert Kiyosaki was the cause of my depression, see Rich Dad’s Before You Quit Your Job: 10 Real-Life Lessons Every Entrepreneur Should Know About Building a Multimillion-Dollar Business.

I was in the dumps but I didn’t want to admit that I was.

Something that happens to other people and not me, kinda thing.

Sometimes you are too proud to tell the truth about yourself.

Sometimes an intervention can pull you up and out, so you can try again…better.

Sold my playstation.

Brushed up my CV.

Went out again applying for jobs and getting interviews so to go back in the rat race again, and doing it right this time around.

To try again.

To fail my way to success.

But what I’m trying to put across is that doing something, the mere act of taking action, helped.

Taking action helps.

Just doing…something…anything that will keep your body moving helps.

But I think your faith is the ultimate defining factor.

I like how Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson puts in this 2:36 min video on Facebook.

Even Dr. Norman Vincent Peale said it is his book The Power of Positive Thinking, “Feeling listless, write a list.”81ND4ZcIsxL

So if you are feeling dead inside then get into motion.

Motion creates emotion. – Anthony Robbins

Thank you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

I love you.

Musa

The Revenant

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“A revenant is a visible ghost or animated corpse that was believed to return from the grave to terrorize the living.”

 

There’s this movie trailer with Leonardo and Tom about their upcoming movie “The Revenant” and how it’s based on a true story.

It had me thinking about how each and everyone of us has a story to tell.

Because for all of us, life is happening at the same time.

And those life experiences are experienced on different levels.

How each of us have a pocket of life stories to tell to anyone willing to lend an ear.

With some parts of our lives are more intense that others.

And how us overcoming such extremes can make for a good movie that inspire others.

About how through the countless pounding our bodies, minds and souls can take…WE ARE STILL HERE!

You are your own inspiring, true life story movie.

Remember that.

You are deserving.

You are loved.

You are successful.

You are sexy.

You are important.

You are brave.

You are strong.

You are awesome.

You are unique.

You are powerful.

You are beautiful.

So rise from the grave of negative definitions you have buried your magnificence in, and terrorize the living with your brilliance!

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

Thank you.

I love you.

~ Musawenkosi Tsoaela

Journal About My Almost Mid-Life Crisis

What I love about BlackBerry – you know, the old ‘Berrys with the QWERTY keypads – is the feeling of the buttons underneath my thumbs.

Reminds me of those old “Tetris” handheld consoles during your GameBoys era.

Lol!

Should have used PSP instead of GameBoy some people won’t be able to relate.

Feeling nostalgic this afternoon.

As I said my goodbyes to a friend.

I would like to call him a friend.

Something I wasn’t too conscious about ever since I started the business.

In fact on a similar business model before this one, I used rapport for financial gains more than anything else.

But now it’s different.

I really enjoy people… I say that like it’s an achievement.

Especially like-minded oaks to help me when I’m down.

But people, some, can be awful at times, it usually spoils the view I have for the rest of them.

I speak like I’m an alien, separate from the human species, but like ja sometimes I feel that’s the case.

But it’s really nice when you meet someone who as a positive outlook.

Who laughs about life’s struggles but chooses to focus on making the best of things instead of bitching about them.

Not to denounce bitching, it has miraculous delightful benefits, but if that’s your only point view then life will continue to sucks for you.

‘Mean if being negative is your dominant reference point, life then for you is going to BE just that… Negative.

Since that is what you think with your thoughts, you affirm with your words and follow through with your actions.

That’s why I liked listening to some motivational CD a day.

A 15 min positive and/or instructive and/or motivation and/or inspiring read a day also does the trick too.

Come to think of it things are incredibly, sickly tough right now maybe it’s because of not practicing these simple daily principles on the daily.

Staying with the Mrs who I promised to marry while my wages can’t even take care of myself.

Only to have her being unexpectedly retrenched, she’s throwing the book to those fuckers by the way, leading to the creditors hounding her and the repo man gunning for her car.

What kind of a man am I to let my woman suffer like that?

Such very inspiring self talks I am told by my mentors to avoid having.

But on the flip side there’s a lot to be grateful for.

Even though there’s not much flexibility in our choices.

But I always says it’s only temporary.

Here I am trying to tell her that everything that is happening is bringing us closer to our goals…with nothing to show for it.

Which is true.

But it’s not her truth.

But I am grateful for choice.

As bad as things are, someone out there would give their left ball to live in what I call struggle.

The opportunities I have right now that I am taking for granted would drive someone else out there up the wall.

That’s why injecting the day with some form of positivity day in and day out will eventually train my mind to see these opportunities and allow me to capitalize on them.

“For every failure, there is an equal and opposite success.”

It’s just a matter of looking, intentionally for it.

“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened..”

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

Thank you.

I love you.

~ Musawenkosi Tshoaele