I use my phone to write the drafts of my blogs, most of the time.
I should be writing more now compared to the phone I was using at the beginning.
The screen was so tiny and the editing… a nightmare.
I’m grateful for the new (not so new) phone I have now.
Yes, the screen is cracked.
The things is, I managed to get the screen “repaired” a while back, but now I’m not able to adjust the brightness settings on the phone screen.
So it’s permanently on the brightest setting.
This used to make for beautiful light shows during my taxi rides back home from my evening shifts.
When my creativity was at its highest.
Busy blinding other passengers on either side of me.
I’m sure they were probably wondering why I don’t dim my phone.
Oh well, they will be strong.
I’m addicted to the Pokemon Go App game, which not only uses the Internet but also my mobile’s GPS feature.
These contributing elements have done a number on my mobile battery strength.
With my phone going from 100% to 0% in under 2 hours as opposed to 16 hours.
I need to attract a new phone.
Something else I’ve noticed is that I’ve been insecure about myself for a while now.
Shit, I can’t even make eye contact with myself in the mirror.
I can hear my heart racing when I do. Probably one of the reasons I don’t like taking pictures of myself.
Oh my bad, I meant to say selfies.
I’ve taken a liking to Snapchat though.
The filters though make me look too feminine.
That’s code for “the filters on Snapchat make me look gay.”
I would have made a pretty gay dad though.
Speaking about being a dad, my Omu has taken most of my attention.
As a 1st time dad, and ignorant in the field of raising an autistic child, saying that things have been rough is an understatement.
But that’s not to say that there haven’t been times of unbelievable joy as well you know?
The thing that fascinates me about this barrier (you notice my use of language? It fascinates. It doesn’t frustrate) is the psychologically around it.
The various degrees of it. Or in this case the spectrum levels.
From severe to non-severe.
My melancholy side tends to love the details.
The beauty is in the details.
But over information leads to overwhelm.
That has been me for most of this year.
I’m living in a stressful time right now.
But then again who isn’t right?
Regular doses of stress, I find, keep you going.
Keeping you moving and taking action.
Stress energy is potential power that you could release through daily activities that produce results for you.
Activities that I’ve been neglecting.
Simple activities like being grateful.
Familiarity breeds contempt.
Like the food you eat.
We’ve grown numb to blessing our food before we eat.
Not realizing how fortunate you are to have such options available to you.
Being grateful daily should be a flex.
“Be thankful for what you have; you’ll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don’t have, you will never, ever have enough.” ~ Oprah Winfrey
Sometimes we have to live in the idea of living as though your prayers have been answered.
Stress makes you think emotionally.
Most “bad” results are made from emotional decisions.
So a “change of state” is advised before making decisions.