Start Attacking What You Fear

There’s something wrong with Stephen King.

I love his books and movie adaptations.

The guy is just loco.

I’m rewatching IT.

Freaking scary stuff.

I want to watch the sequel, because it has that guy from Wanted or was it Split, I think it was X-Men (James McAvoy).

I don’t like scary movies, I don’t like the hold they have over me.

So that’s why I would watch one.

I don’t like being intimidated.

I need to attack my fears.

Because Will Smith said so.

He said he attacked what he feared.

Will Smith used to make dope movies…but now…I don’t know man. It makes me sad.

But he makes great YouTube videos though.

At least there’s that.

~ Musa

You Need to Take The World

“If you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will spend its entire life believing it’s stupid.”

It’s important to take every advice or comment or instruction you get, with a bit of salt.

Question everything until it makes sense to you.

Screw “this is how it was done for a long time, so you just have to do it too” mentality.

Only when you understand it, then go ahead and do it.

Not before.

This will put you in firing line because you are going against the norm.

Most are too afraid to go against a backward system and they will figuratively crucify you.

Make your stand.

Do things only when they make sense to you.

You need to lead them into a new understanding.

You need to take the world my Brightburn.

~ Musa

Eyes Tell No Lies…Until They Do…

IMG-20191214-WA0020I sent a buddy of mine, a graduate mind you (because I hang around professionals), a recent photo of myself at office.

The air-con was on so I needed to put on my “Eskimo jacket.”

I looked so tired in it.

Well, my eyes looked tired.

My eyes used to radiate excitement and fun and joy and laughter, passion even.

I see those eyes in my older pics.

That fire in my eyes has slowly dimmed.

My supervisor in the short-term insurance telemarketing job I had in Randburg, mentioned how I smiled with my eyes.

I think my eyes I tired of telling lines, and are just reflecting what I feel in my heart.

Sadness.

What’s making you sad?”

I don’t know.

Or maybe I do and I just don’t want to admit it.

Admitting it will free me from this sadness that now feels so warm.

Pain addict.

A colleague said that’s a toxic way of living.

I’ll be way from work for the next 6 days, I hope that I will find ways of getting my shit in order.

Or I should maybe consult with one of these professionals I’ve been bragging about.

I’ve been reading Breaking the Habit of Being YourselfHow to Love Your Mind and Create a New One by Dr. Joe Dipenza.

This book is striking almost every nerve I have in relation to my current head space. It’s a difficult read because I need the information that’s coming across from it.

Maybe once I’m done, my eyes won’t look as tired as my heart is.

~ Musa

To What End?

I’m not sure about you but when I’m feeling down I tend to look for a feeling of significance on the Internet.

I sometimes find it by generating traffic to whatever online footprint I have.

Generating traffic, from the little I know, comes from consistent updating of quality content…over time.

I used to think one or two updates was going to make me traffic generating king.

But it doesn’t work that way.

I mean, to what end?

What is your goal?

For exposure?

To make money?

What’s plan?

Reverse engineer that shit.

Gary Vaynerchuck said it best…when he said…whatever man, Gary is just an awesome human being, please follow him…

…yes, this blog was basically about Gary and how awesome he is.

Please check out his latest podcast on his website.

You thought I was going to write something deep neh?

Maybe next time, stay tuned 🙂

~ Musa

I Dare You To Instagram The Bad Days Too…

It’s not about changing circumstances to solve the problem.

The problem is not as clear cut as changing jobs or adding other income sources.

It’s more of getting my next dopamine hit.

I’m unhinged.

My highs are not as high as before.

My dips are getting deeper.

The need in the form of using sex and alcohol as a drug is getting stronger.

Unless I find an alternative.

These are just manifestations of an underlining issue I’m avoding.

A constant, prolonging pain that is foreign to the body but has made itself at home.

With my consent?

Maybe subconsciously.

Anything that would free me of its existence, through antidepressants or dopamine stimulation is openly accepted.

The need for pleasure driving me away from pain.

Making me a master at attracting that anything and everything that will bring me pleasure.

In unhealthy ways…

Now with all this self-analysis and still not doing shit about it, makes all this a useless exercise.

But this is life, you need to own the bad days as much as you Instagram the good ones.

~ Musa

Born Again

kinopoisk.ruI think Constantine was the best DC movie that DC have ever made.

A close number 2 being  V for Vendetta.

Shazam, Aquaman, Wonder Woman, Justice League, and Batman vs Superman, were okayish.

I take that back, Wonder Woman was freaking awesome!

The Dark Knight Trilogy were on a league of their own.

I think the struggle they [DC] are having is marring all these movies into leading up to an “Avengers” kind of build-up…”Justice League Part II” in this case because Justice League wasn’t so great.

I don’t see that happening as effectively as Marvel did with their movies.

But if they have the money, and the time, I would like to see how successful they would be in their attempt.

I love the planning that went into Avengers: Endgame.

Talk about reverse engineering, right?

Knowing what you want at the end of the day, and then working & planning backwards from there.

It’s either that or I love the idea of seeing the good guys not living happily ever after.

Like in Troy.

I plan like this for most of my smaller goals, like getting to work on time.

I need to use it for my bigger goals.

So for example when I need to be at work by 10 AM and I’m using public transport, I would calculate that I need to be in town by 9 AM so that it would give me an hour dedicated to travelling to work.2f3c4b27ad724469ac8e336ca03c1c5f (1)

This means I need to be in the taxi cab from my place going to town by 8 AM.

So I need to be up by 7 AM.

Then Musa sets alarm clock for 7 AM.

But all of this begins by knowing what my aim is.

What is your aim?

Whether we would like to admit it or not, we are goal creating beings.

We are living in linear plane where we have a forward momentum towards everything in our world.

And since we are going forward like we are, we can’t help but to be heading towards something.

Some are heading towards a vague idea of what they want to achieve.

The few are heading to towards a crystal, clear idea of exactly what they want.7-habits.jpg

And one of the way they gain that vision is through reverse engineering planning.

I think I got this idea from reading those self-help books that were available in the library my aunt took me to, so she can use the time to study.

I used the time to read all sorts of works until I dared myself to read one thick book by Dr. Stephen R. Covey.

That book opened me up to a whole new world.

Re-reading that book opened up my brain to a new kind of living.

I was born-again.

~ Musa

“The Older You Get, The More Quiet You Become.”

I was thinking to myself the other day that when you live long enough, you end up being a hypocrite.

You end up contradicting yourself.

I’ve been seeing this from those Facebook memories feature I have on my FB page.

What I thought or believed in before, is not what I believe in now.

Truth is ever changing.

That’s why the Truth will forever be constant.

Because at its core the Truth is ever changing, making it valid at that point in time.

For it, Truth, to only change moments later.

So what you thought was true when you were single, is not so true when you are married, for example.

This makes it very difficult for me to criticize people based on their status updates on social media.

Especially when I really, really want to make a 2 cent comment.

A 2 cent comment that usually contradicts all the positive things I keep publishing here.

Only for me to find myself in the same situation in life somewhere down the line.

Life will humble you.

I don’t believe you should be gullible to the extent that you accept everything.

But have an open mind.

“The mind is like a parachute… It only works if we keep it open.”

~ Musa