Morning Cravings

She takes my breath away
That’s why I have lung cancer
Breathing through pipes
Chocking on my own saliva
– in excess
I recess
Re-address
& stress
& miss a step
& I fall
For her
I mean “It”
I mean It
Shit…
My hands are starting to shake again

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Only God Knows

Sometimes when things don’t go as planned, especially when the going gets tough – as it usually does when you are working towards a worthy goal – and you do everything physically possible to make things work…and they don’t.

It’s good to know that there is a higher power that transcends physical laws that you can tap into to help make things smoother for you.

I get my relief from God.

Especially from those heartfelt and passionate morning prayers that I affirm frequently during the course of the day.

Thank you.

I love you.

– Musawenkosi Tshoaele

The Mind Of A ‘WerksMan’

This guy makes a comment on how the mindset of an employee (werksman) is locked on depending on the end month for an income, in the form of a salary.

While he, as an entrepenuer, has an inner intuition that tells him that some way, some how he will get the money that he needs.

And from that unwavering trust came the money that he needed, from various sources.

It made think how dangerous getting used to the rat race can be.

Depending on a single source of income as your only way to recieve an income limits your creativity in th sense of finding new and alternative ways to generate that addition income.

Thought I should blog about since it made me think.

And I write what I think.

I love you.

Thank you.

– Musawenkosi Tshoaele

The Tighter The Grip The More Painful The Experience

So how are you feeling right now?

Angry.

Upset.

Sad.

Speechless.

Disappointment.

Frustrated.

Hurt.

Weak.

Overwhelmed.

…Wow. If I felt all that at the same time I would be overwhelmed too.

How does that make you feel feeling all the way you do?

Like I’m not in control of my results.

Ok…now based on what you know and blog about even over at blogspot how true is that?

…It’s of course an incorrect definition of what I’m experiencing but I can’t deny I’m feeling FANTASTIC when I aint.

You’re quite right about that one. As optimistic as we would like to be, sometimes we need to call a spade a spade right?

That’s for damn sure!

Indeed. But I’m sure you would agree that if what you focus on expands, how much more of the negative things will you come up with if your focus is ON the negatives? A lot more isn’t it?

…Ja sure.

How much better would you feel if you were to take your focus and momentum OFF what you don’t want – because I’m certain you don’t want things to remain as they are since they aren’t getting you any where – and ON to the things you DO want?

Ja man but it’s not easy man!

Yeah because you’ve gotten so used to feeling hurt that you’ve become loyal to pain than you are of pleasure?

You feel you don’t deserve to feel pleasure so you would rather feel pain because that’s a feeling you are more familiar with? As in that is your comfort zone?

Just because you’re nothing speaking to me doesn’t mean I can’t read your thoughts ne?

I guess I’ve hit a nerve so for publishing purposes slowly…and gently let go of the pain you are feeling right now – as frightening as letting go may seem to you right now – and share your thoughts with Me…

…I feel safer in the pain.

I know. This is because pain has protected you in the pass right? I mean why get rid of something that works right?

…But it’s not working.

And why is that?

Because things don’t go my way at the end of the day.

Is it? Ok. So how can we begin to change things so that they turn around for us?

By beginning to let go of limited self image I have for myself and reaching over to a better self concept of myself.

Even if I fall at least I would have tried.

Because holding on to my old self is costing me in money and emotionally and physically…

Always ask: ‘What is this I am feeling?’

‘Could I accept it and allow it?’

‘Could I let this go?’

‘Would I let this go?’

‘When?’

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You Need To Be Asking The Right Questions

“What are you happy about or what could you be happy about if you wanted to be?”

I’m happy that I stopped smoking. I feel that it was an achievement that I didn’t fully celebrate.

And seeing the psychological hold it has on a lot of people I see, I’m really glad I did.

“How does that make you feel?”

It makes me feel in charge. Like I’m in control.

I puts me in an emotional place of empowerment.

It makes me feel like I’m a champion.

“What else can you be happy about, if you could?”

The fact that I’m making a difference in not my own life but other people’s lives.

By turning myself into being an income generator and doing so by positively affecting other people’s families.

I’m a positive contributing agent in the South African community and economy.

“How does that make you feel?”

It makes me feel like I have purpose and that I can make a difference in the lives of people I speak to over the phone.

“What’s great about this?”

…Nothing.

“Alright then what could be great about this?”

My income potential has no limits.

I get to be around a diverse group of people.

My potential for growth and self development is very high.

“And how does that make you feel?”

It’s kinda motivating and inspiring.

I get to beautiful people and I like seeing beauty.

It’s way more cooler than being imprisoned by my PlayStation at home.

You can only play God Of War III for so long.

“How can I use this?”

By using the resources around me to turn things around.

They’ve there for longer so they can give me tips on how to make things work and improve my Law of Averages.

“How does that make you feel?”

Like I have the power all along to improve my situation.

And it can start now if I allow it.

It makes me feel hopeful.

It makes me feel grateful.

Thank you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

I love you.

~ Musawenkosi Tshoaele