The Revenant

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“A revenant is a visible ghost or animated corpse that was believed to return from the grave to terrorize the living.”

 

There’s this movie trailer with Leonardo and Tom about their upcoming movie “The Revenant” and how it’s based on a true story.

It had me thinking about how each and everyone of us has a story to tell.

Because for all of us, life is happening at the same time.

And those life experiences are experienced on different levels.

How each of us have a pocket of life stories to tell to anyone willing to lend an ear.

With some parts of our lives are more intense that others.

And how us overcoming such extremes can make for a good movie that inspire others.

About how through the countless pounding our bodies, minds and souls can take…WE ARE STILL HERE!

You are your own inspiring, true life story movie.

Remember that.

You are deserving.

You are loved.

You are successful.

You are sexy.

You are important.

You are brave.

You are strong.

You are awesome.

You are unique.

You are powerful.

You are beautiful.

So rise from the grave of negative definitions you have buried your magnificence in, and terrorize the living with your brilliance!

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

Thank you.

I love you.

~ Musawenkosi Tsoaela

Capped Births

The mechanics of life
Keep clocking away
Grinding away at the tip
Filling away until the point of no return
I look to the side
Time rings my neck
Full 360
Turns my world around
2 faced
Like a flip of a coin
And I find it funny
Laugh myself into a state
I look and it’s too late
And she’s late
She feels used
By my dick and the fetus
Like focus
The world is full of us
Robust
Wonder who used to kill the extra baby when China had capped births
Now you see me now you don’t

~ Musawenkosi Tshoaele

“Look Around Less, Imagine More.” ― @AbrahamHicks

It been a while I wrote a blog.

Sometimes I overthink the process.

But all it is, at its basic level, is an online journal.

A glorified, online journal a friend of my commented.

Guess it’s this kind of glory that keeps me sane.

I love writing.

That’s saying a lot since some people don’t know what they love.

Love in the sense of the purpose and calm and joy you feel while in the act of doing the thing that makes you powerful.

It was a question I asked myself right before I went to bed with the real intention of wanting to “hear” the answer I come up with in the silent moments when I wake up the following morning.

It was an “I hear dead people moment,” obviously suggested by one of those life changing, surprisingly enjoyable read by Neale Donald Walsch.

One of those success habits recommended daily so to get in touch with the God within apart from the God you find in church.

Success habits that Tony Robbins put so well in that video <<

I love that video because he speaks about Gratitude.

Something I have not been exercising as I should lately.

Especially with the new develops in my life.

Got a whole lot of things to be grateful for so I can be energized with the strength needed to power through.

Philippians 4:13

I'm sorry.

Please forgive me.

Thank you.

I love you.

~ Musawenkosi Tshoaele

Inkwenkwezi

heartbeat
heart beating against my lungs
beating on my lungs
puncher wounds
like bullet holes
pouring out blood streams
that stem out into red roses
that fall like cement petals
that form networks
social
online
subliminal connections
that maps out the distance between states
of minds
that remain closed by the bipolar
bayangi loya
is it mad max
witness me
or an observer
pg block like an explora
call the God center
but hell is scrambling my signal to heaven
don’t know if I’m praying to God or looking up to the Devil
slit throat
the more smiles
the happier
the better
I gather
uyangi thola…
hiding my joy
behind my tears
fears
hurts
burns through my fatherless veins
and itch like inyaope..pho
smoking up the house so to choke up the evil spirits
only to find them tanning on the roof of your high…
…on your own supply
they got you beat didn’t they…
breathing through straws
your throat is cut remember…
uyangi buza
noma uyangitsela…
unspoken words
like ismumu
miming
mining my way to the afterlife
wondering why they can’t hear me
pray
stay
astray
everyday
play….play…play
dhladhla mkhwenyana
on and off the platform of death
while life is trying to pass you by
first stop New Canada
kuya ngawe if bayaku loya
uyangi thola
you remember
noma ugcwele ukudlala…dlala mkhwenyana…

~ Musawenkosi Tshoaele

“Don’t Die With Your Music Still In You” ~ @DrWayneWDyer

Just a bit bummed about the passing of the good Dr Wanye Dyer.

But after counseling with my #joy @Phetheni we came to the understanding that he played his part in this world.

And it’s up to us to pay forward his teachings to leave where ever we are better than how we found it.

“Change the way you look at things and the things you look at change.” – Wayne Dyer

I love you.

Thank you.

– Musawenkosi Tshoaele

Fight or Flight

Have you ever wanted something so bad that when it gets to be only centimetres away from you that you become too scared to take it?

When the fight or flight response takes over.

Having to decide whether to run away from it or to fight for what you want.

That internal conflict within you that you find comfort in because of how it leads to you doing anything.

The inaction that has brought you to where you are right now.

Where now you are at the crossroads of your life once again where you have to ask yourself which step to take next…

One of relief,

…freedom,

…peace,

…happiness,

…joy,

…accomplishment,

…love,

…recognition,

…success?

Or do you stay in your current state, hoping – like you have been for the past 5 years – for the change to come.

Change that will never come until you change.

I love you.

Thank you.

~ Musawenkosi Tshoaele

You Don’t Have To Feel Like It, You Just Have To Do It

You know the thing that excites me the most about affirmations is the science behind it.

When the Word becomes Flesh.

How repeated, emotional, written affirmations attracts the things you want for yourself in your life.

I don’t know how it works.

Books have been written about it trying to explain it but it just IS.

Like gravity.

I think it’s because of it’s unquestionable effectiveness that I have stop working it…

The fear of success.

Maybe it’s because I tell myself that I don’t deserve the things I write down and affirm to myself daily.

Then when I do receive, because this daily principle if practiced long enough works whether you believe in it or not, a part of me rejects it.

Think that’s why I need to listen to more of these business support CD audios I keep getting, and attend more functions just to instill belief.

Just writing that and letting it all hang out like that made me pause for a moment.

Because you can tell yourself you need to do something but up until it is done then there will be no desired changes in your life.

James 2:26

What you see in your mind and say with your mouth and follow through with your actions will deliberately create the life you want to live.

I love you.

I’m sorry.

Please forgive me.

Thank you.

~ Musawenkosi Tshoaele